Funk... and not the music

I’m in a funk. And I don’t know why. I graduated from college almost seven months ago and found a job rather quickly. My six month mark (and all the fun benefits that come with that… vacation time!!) with the Union is next Sunday. All in all I am fairly happy with the work. It has its rough moments, like 83 hour weeks and lack of time off, but it also has it perks, like changing peoples lives for the better (well, that’s the goal) and my co-workers for the most part are fantastic. The pay is also a plus, I never expected to make as much as I do with Women’s Studies and English degrees. Remember the other job I interviewed for only paid $19,000 a year.

My family has been great and the friends that matter are still in my life. I may not see them as much as I would like but that’s a fact of the real world. My love life leaves something to be desired, but that is something that usually remedies itself in time. I’m not too worried.

Still, something is missing. I think part of it is that I am REALLY not happy in Pennsylvania. In college, I never expected to stay in the state after graduation. To add insult to injury, I am in a part of the state that I HATE. I was happy in Pittsburgh but being up here is sucking the life out of me. The only thing that is keeping me going is the fact that eventually I will leave and go to another part of the state. But the fact remains that I am still in PA. I’m going to have to start looking at Grad schools soon if I want to go in Fall 2006 and I am not applying to any that are in PA. I want to go far, far away. I need that sense of starting over and starting fresh. I didn’t have that when I started this job. I still feel like I am in a bit of a transitional stage.

All in all I should be happy, despite my distain for PA, life is pretty good. So why aren’t I?

My Torrid Affair!

So rumor has it I'm having an affair. To bad nobody told me about it. Well, until Thursday night that is. Came as quite a surprise to say the least.

Here’s what I heard; apparently, I'm sleeping with one of my co-workers. A married one. Oh, wait, this guy is not just married, but on top of it, he has a 9 month old son! DAMN, I’m a home wrecking floozy!!

The man in question and I are friends, he is one of the co-workers that I have really bonded with. And there is NOTHING going on. BUT since men and women can't be JUST friends (silly me for thinking so), the office staff thinks that I am sleeping with him.

Let, me tell ya, I’m PISSED! If you know me at all you know that the reason I believe that women haven’t advanced as much as we should have is because we are constantly fighting over men. And until we stop fighting each other over them (as well as stop stealing each others boyfriends, fiancés and husbands) it will never happen. It’s the way the patriarchy keeps us down, by culturally controlling us into thinking we have to fight each other in order to get the male attention that makes us believe that we will get ahead. Basiclly saying that the only way we gain upward mobility is through marriage to a good man. Fuck that I say.

So, again, I’m a weeee bit pissed. I mean if I were to sleep with a married co-worker AT LEAST it would be someone who would advance my career. ;-)

Fucking Cupid...

I hate this fucking commercialized holiday. Seriously people, do you really need one day to tell those you care about how much you love them? Tell them every day, you stupid heartless, unfeeling, self centered ass. You never know when they won’t be there anymore. Grrr…

Well, ok, so I got flowers today… and that did make me smile. So I guess I shouldn’t bitch too much.


Happy Valentines Day!!

Super Bowl Boredom

I was bored during the Super Bowl and this is what resulted... (there was work I could have been doing but Fuck it)

Name Three Bad Habits You Have:
1. Falling in love with Conservatives
2. Not eating enough veggies
3. Procrastination (such as this list)

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
1. More Money
2. An Apartment
3. A horse (It’s the 8 year girl in me)
4. Time for a life

Name Four Scents You Love:
1. The air after a rain storm
2. Clean Laundry
3. Lilac
4. Men after sex

Three People That Know You the Best:
1. Jessica
2. Brian
3. My Mom

Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
1. I don't want to work
2. I should go to bed
3. I need satellite radio
4. I love my new computer

Four Bands/Groups/Singers Most People Don't Know You Like:
1. Counting Crows
2. John Denver (I grew up on it)
3. Mirah
4. Alison Krauss (She has the most amazing voice out there)

Eight Things You Like To Wear:
1. Sweaters
2. Yoga pants
3. Slippers
4. Boots with big heels
5. Red
6. Mascara
7. Long jackets
8. Glasses

Seven Things That Annoy You:
1. Republicans/Conservatives (but it doesn’t stop me from fucking them)
2. People who chew with there mouths open
3. Men who don’t respect strong women
4. Evil hospital management teams
5. Mean drivers
6. Men
7. Ignorance/Racism/Sexism

Six Things You Say Most Days:
1. Speak up! I’m a little deaf!
2. Hello, my name is Heidi and I’m from the Union at your hospital
3. Thank you
4. Fucking Bush
5. I should get some sleep
6. Stop muttering! I already told you I’m a little deaf!

Five Things You Do Everyday:
1. Sing Loudly
2. Drive… a lot
3. Figure out how to stick it to the man
4. Talk on the phone too much
5. Eat a REALLY late dinner

Four People You Want To Spend More Time With:
1. Jess
2. My friends from home
3. My mom
4. My cat (does that count?)

Three Movies You Could Watch Over And Over Again:
1. Amelie
2. Love Actually
3. The Cutting Edge

Three Of Your Favorite Songs At The Moment:
1. Anything on Mirah’s C'mon Miracle album
2. Howie Day, Collide
3. We’ve Got Tonight

One Thing You Couldn't Live Without:
1. My sense of Humor

Money is Nice

So I got the job! I am currently making $12,000 more today then I was one Monday. Woo Hoo!! Now the next step is sitting down and making a budget so I don’t get all crazy with all my new found cash and can’t pay my student loans. Haha.

Currently, my job has me posted in North Eastern PA (NEPA), specifically Wilkes-Barre. Otherwise known as, “Where Hell has, in fact, frozen over.” Cause, FUCK, its cold!! And there is not much going on here. I’m thinking about going to check out the club/bar scene tonight. I hear that there are TWO here. God, it is a far cry from State College.

Oh yeah, and I am thinking of getting a puppy. I’m going to the SPCA today. Hehe.